I have loved these last few days at home, just chilling out, hanging out on tumblr, seeing friends hitting the beach, hanging out with my family. I don’t feel present in my life sometimes. Work soaks up so much of my energy and time and it leaves me deflated and I miss just having time to do nothing. I want endless hours of nothingness. I didn’t appreciate it enough when I had. I have to go back tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it. Sometimes I wish zombies would invade and that society would collapse and I could live in an underground shelter and do nothing all the time.
My mother and I are going to do this thing tonight where we go to the cinema and watch New Years Eve. And whilst I think it’s probably not going to a very good film I am still quite excited to watch it. I mean, Valentine’s Day was very lame and I still sort of enjoyed that. But it’s the film that I am most looking forward to, it’s hanging out with my mum. It’s not something I do anymore. We seem to argue and fight more than ever. And I guess she can sense that I am ready to move on in my life and it bothers her that I am not her little girl anymore and I think she really wants me to be. I don’t want things to change between us, because she’s all I’ve ever really had but they are and I can’t stop it. I guess it’ll be nice to spend some mother/daughter time with her is all.
THIS MESSAGE IS DIRECTED TOWARDS YOU BUT ALSO SEYHAN. I GOT MY CHRISTMAS CARD THE OTHER DAY. IT IS SO CUTE THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUU XOXO XO XO XO. PS my mom was all "awww they are so pretty how thoughtful of them" and then she asked me "are they just friends or are they girlfriends?" I definitely said you were girlfriends.
Fantastic! I am so glad you received it in time and that you liked it and you are incredible! And I can’t believe you told your mum we were girlfriends. That is awesome.